My Marriage was almost Sexless Until!

By: Apprehensive Cuck

Hello,

I am a 38 year old married man to my 33 year old wife. Tomorrow is our 5 year anniversary.

I was married before for 9 years, and after that ended in a fiery blaze of heartache I swore I would never remarry and that any romantic relationships would be purely physical and fun for me. I was in my "prime" sexually, so I had a lot of new experiences including threesomes, even a sixsome couples swap, among other fun and new experiences.

Around that time I was frequently intimate with a woman who had really strong feelings for me, but would also sleep around on me without my knowledge. I found out about it and felt betrayed that she couldn't share the truth with me, and when she finally did open up about it I got incredibly turned on. Sometimes in that headspace I would take her and ravage her anywhere we were, on the floor, in the car, just a super heightened sense of competition trying to claim her.

However, more and more in that headspace I started to feel more and more of what I call a butterfly agony in my stomach all over that makes me desperate to please her. I found myself begging her to tell me the details of her cheating while she stroked my penis.

Now, if anyone of you have never experienced this, it has become my all time favorite way to experience sex. I could never have my penis locked up, because stroking my penis is the first step to unlocking those butterfly anxiety feelings that make me feel submissive. Imagine this beautiful woman with her body being a walking orgasm waiting to happen. Well SHE had me laying on my back with my legs open, stroking my weak penis with her fingers while telling me the details of her infidelity.

"I went to his apartment while you were playing basketball with your friends, he asked me why I was here, and I told him he knew why, so he just smirked and shoved his fingers down my panties into my pussy." Imagine how hard my dick got in her hands signifying just how turned on her story was making me, leaving absolutely no way for me to escape the truth that I was getting hornier the more she mindfucked me.

And it got even more humiliating for me when she would take off her panties and make me taste them, or even worse, she'd make me wear them all day long, me feeling the wet spot she produced from having been with him. She was able to take me places in my mind and body that really reprogrammed what arousal is to me.

So fast forward years later to my wife who is both more reserved about sexuality and more direct and even mean sometimes in the way she communicates her own feelings. She's amazing in so many ways, and I believe we will be together forever, but when it came to sexuality, she was really against kinks and fetishes. She didn't have any (known) kinks herself, and she saw kinks in others as more of a personality weakness than something to explore. I believed I could find and unlock her kinks over time, but for 5 years none of the buttons I pressed seemed to unlock anything.

I had communicated to my wife that I had experienced a lot of different things sexually, and that I wanted us to be open to trying things that would excite us both. I told her about some of the more submissive, sissy, cuckolding activities, even showing her a pair of panties and butt plug I had bought for myself. I asked her one day to tie me up and sit on my face, which she did, but like all of the things outside of vanilla sex she really didn't seem to enjoy it and only seemed to do it for me.

The #1 thing that is important to me is really getting to the core of what makes a woman "tick." What really turns you on? No matter how weird or messed up, what makes you truly wet and horny? After almost 5 years I really couldn't seem to find it, and I had all but given up on trying. Our sex life was grinding to a halt. Early on in the relationship we were having sex 4-5 times a day, but just as currently as 2 weeks ago we were averaging sex once every 3-5 months.

One week ago something changed. My wife has been asked suddenly to travel to New York for work last minute. She would be leaving in less than 48 hours so she began to pack. I decided to focus on everything I could to ensure she was ready for her trip and comfortable. I cleaned around the house. I helped her pack. I did all I could think of without asking anything in return.

I kept telling her how much I was going to miss her, and how I had started planning a surprise for our anniversary this week. I saw her posture and expression change as if she was really seeing me for the first time in a while. While I was helping her pack I noticed a couple pieces of lingerie and some panties I had never seen before. I didn't say anything about them, but part of me thought it was odd because the idea of her cheating on me or showing off her body was pretty much dead in my mind. She wasn't like my ex-girlfriend who literally needed sex every day to survive, my wife was fine going months without it with no issues.

So imagine my surprise when she pulled me into our bedroom and told me to take off my pants. I was surprised but I complied. She told me to lay back on the bed so I did. I closed my eyes and she started sucking my soft penis making it harder. Once it was semi hard she climbed on the bed and sat between my legs. She then spanked my penis 3 times and said, "I know you touch yourself and cum without me, so I want you to know that when I leave for New York there's a good chance I cum without you. I'm tired of how you ignore my pussy, so I intend to find someone that will do something about it."

She starts stroking my dick, and after hearing those words I am throbbing, excited, confused, and anguished. I ask her to tell me what she is talking about. She says I heard her correctly and that she wants to get fucked while she's in New York. She takes my prick to the edge of orgasm and demands that I give her permission. I swear and sweat and cry out, "You don't need my permission! Just do it and come back and spank my weak penis and force me to cum while telling me about it!" She strokes me strong and with both hands grabbing both the base of my penis and violating the front tip of my penis, and I convulse and cum all over her hands. She doesn't stop stroking me, so now my sensitive penis is getting fucked up and assaulted causing me to try to grab her hands to remove them. She holds on strong gripping my cumming penis and continuing her onslaught, and I start swearing and saying, "I'm a bitch," and I cum again deep from my balls.

Of course as soon as this all ends I immediately feel the weight of embarrassment. My wife had just forced me to cum to the thought of her potentially cheating on me. Where did this come from? She was so anti this idea this whole time! Is there a guy that she is considering, or is it someone she would pick up in the moment? She really packed sexy panties to make this happen! This is not a drill and actually a threat, and now I am weak, dripping, and waiting on her hand and foot due to the potential that someone else wants to breach my wife.

I'll be anxiously waiting and then report back if anything happens. Apprehensive Cuck

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