Dick size leading eventually leading to me becoming a Cuck!

By: Nick

Hello,

Hey. Long story but wanted to share the long journey of how I became a cuck.

In high school, I lost my virginity to my girlfriend at the time and we had sex a half dozen times before eventually breaking up. Obviously for first timers, the sex was simultaneously exciting and awkward. I didn't think of myself as a stud by any measure but I suppose there was sense of superiority over some of my friends who remained virgins.

When I started college, I met a girl in my dorm on the first weekend and we hooked up in her room after a party. It was a quintessential one night stand after which neither of us were looking to start a relationship. This girl was a huge gossip though. I hadn't told anyone about our night together but soon everyone in our dorm knew about it. Moreover, she told everyone that the sex was amazing and that I had a huge cock. This wasn't true though. I had perhaps a slightly above average 6.5" cock. This girl's previous boyfriend though apparently had a really small dick and she didn't have any bearings for what average size actually was.

To my surprise and delight (at least at first), this false rumor about my cock size caught on like wildfire on the campus. My name is Nick and people who had didn't even know me were referring to me as 'Big Dick Nick'. I would meet people for the first time, introduce myself as Nick, and then they would get all excited and ask if I was 'THE' Nick. And I hate to admit it but the rumor definitely gave me more confidence. Girls were seeking me out and flirting with me regularly. It honestly made me feel like a guy with a huge dick even though I knew I didn't have one.

My brief confidence though was diminished when I actually started dating and hooking up with other girls. It was completely deflating to see their reaction seeing my dick for the first time. They expected something huge and then were instantly disappointed once they saw my actual cock. Girls mostly didn't say anything about it but it was clear from their reactions what they were thinking.

Over time, I started to get a lot of anxiety about girl's reactions to my dick. Even after graduating college and leaving the sphere of the rumor, I still worried every time about what girls would think about my dick. It became a bit of a self sabotaging scenario where I would resist showing my dick to girls even when the wanted to hook up with me. And during the instances when I did show my dick to a girl, my anxiety would prevent me from getting fully hard which only made my dick appear even smaller.

Around this time, I remeasured my cock at home and was surprised to see it was only 5" fully hard. I was pretty sure of my previous measurements in high school being >6" but I was clearly now <6". I started to wonder if my dick was shrinking or if it was more of a monkey's paw curse as of result of the rumor about my 'big dick' in college. I also checked and found that my dick could easily fit through a toilet roll cardboard tube which made me feel thin. And when I wasn't fully hard, my dick didn't even poke out of the far end of the tube which convinced me that I was both thin and short. Some of this was my own mind games and mental health but I was certain that my dick was smaller that it used to be.

A few months later, I met a girl named Amy at a coffee shop. I wasn't trying to hit on her but we were sitting next to each other and she briefly borrowed my phone charger so her phone didn't die. Long story short, I ended up getting her number and we started dating a few weeks later.

We kissed but didn't have sex after first several dates. We were both taking it slow, so to speak. Eventually Amy revealed that her previous relationship had ended because she had cheated on her boyfriend. She said that she didn't tell him that she had cheated but just the act of cheating made her realize that the relationship should be over. I asked several questions about how she cheated and she was remarkably honest. She had been drinking at a party but wasn't very drunk. Her friend was talking to another guy and she was left by herself momentarily.

A man then came up to her and started flirting with her. He was moderately attractive but not crazy hot or anything. He mentioned that he was a neighbor in the apartment building and gave her his apartment number. Then later that night after her friend left, Amy went over to the man's apartment and knocked on his door. He then let her in and they quickly started having sex on his couch. And after they were done, Amy left and went home. She didn't even remember his name. It was pretty much just a one night stand but she had taken the initiative to knock on his door when she knew what would likely happen.

Amy then asked me about my previous relationships. Since Amy had been so honest about her previous cheating, I decided to be honest as well and tell her the complicated story about my dick size and how it affected all my relationships over the years. Amy took it surprisingly well and even laughed when I told her about the girls in college who expected my dick to be huge and then were disappointed to see its actual size.

In the end, Amy asked if she could see my dick to put the story in better context. I asked if she was serious and she laughed while nodding. She added that she would see it eventually so might as well show her now. I was super embarrassed but eventually agreed. After taking my pants off, I was standing there in just my boxers and a t-shirt in front of Amy. Amy encouraged me to continue and I meekly pushed my boxers down revealing my dick to her.

I wasn't hard at all which made me even more humiliated. Amy just looked at my dick at first and didn't say anything. She then got on her knees in front of me as if to give me a blowjob. But she didn't start sucking my dick. Instead, she just looked at my dick up close while holding it in different positions with her hand. As she touched me, I started to get a little bit hard but nothing close to a full erection. After what felt like an eternity, Amy stood up and confirmed that my dick was pretty small to her, at least compared to the men she had been with previously. I felt completely humiliated but continued to stand there bottomless in front of her. Amy then said it was getting late and she had to take off. She said goodnight, kissed me on the cheek, and then left my apartment while I still had my boxers around my ankles.

The next day, Amy called me and thanked me for telling her everything. I thought she might break up with me but instead she said she still really liked me and wanted to continue dating. I was thrilled that my small dick hadn't completely scared her away. She then added a caveat though that made my heart sink. She said that sex was very important to her and that we weren't gonna be successful if she was sexually frustrated (referring to my dick size). She then proposed having an open relationship built on honesty and trust. I told Amy that I didn't want to hook up with other girls and we eventually agreed on an open relationship just for her (which is essentially cuckolding but neither of us said the word).

We want on several more dates over the next month. Nothing happened sexually and I felt very much in the friend zone. Besides a few hugs and kisses, there was no other touching or sexual advances. I eventually asked Amy how she was approaching the 'open relationship'. Amy admitted that she had never had an open relationship before and was a bit anxious on how to start. I told her that she was very beautiful and just needed to put herself out there and the guys would come to her. Amy laughed and eventually agreed to go to a bar that night by herself as a challenge.

Later that night, Amy texted me and said she was one of the only girls in the bar with a winky face emoji. One guy caught her attention and she ended up talking to him for an hour as he bought her a couple drinks. Amy eventually walked outside with him and they started making out against his car. Then in his back seat, she gave him a blowjob for several minutes before hiking up her skirt and getting railed by him doggy style.

Amy told me all the sultry details of her car sex the next day in my apartment. She made a point to say that the guy's cock was huge and she could barely fit it in her mouth. I was obviously enthralled by everything she was saying and she eventually asked if I wanted to jerk off while she finished the story. I agreed and quickly took my pants off and started rubbing my dick. Amy continued her story while almost ignoring my masturbation.

She talked about how she was soaked and his dick slipped easily into her pussy. She said it felt incredible and she orgasmed multiple times before he pulled out. She then put her mouth on his dick as he erupted and swallowed as much cum as she could. She said she felt like a complete slut but loved every minute. I had a mix of emotions all at the same time. My girlfriend had just been raw dogged by a stranger and I had still never even seen her naked or touched her boobs. Amy asked me if I was almost done and I instantly started to cum. Regretfully, I had masturbated the night before during her data and my load wasn't very big. It covered my lap and Amy laughed looking at me with my semi-hard dick in my hand. She then gave me a kiss on the cheek and told me to clean myself up.

Since then, Amy has hooked up with at least a half dozen more men. Almost all have been one night stands except for one guy where she stayed at his place for an entire weekend. I still haven't seen her naked or had any sexual interactions with her. The most we've ever done is cuddle on the couch. But we continue dating and Amy continues to tell me every detail of her sexual escapades afterwards.

Nick - mahmiss@tutanota.com

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