Hello,
Not long after highschool, and the break up with my long term highschool girlfriend I met a girl in community college.
She was gorgeous and we hit things off great. We moved very fast, and she was staying at my place most of the time within 2 months.
At first the sex was awesome, she gave the best blowjobs I've ever had to this day and wanted to fuck every day. Though she rarely ever came from sex, just oral. After the new relationship energy started to wear off the sex died out pretty fast, always wound up with me trying to instigate and her holding back.
Things outside of sex were great, we had a good relationship, went to the same classes, went on trips during breaks, and had started planning for the long term as much as 19 and 20 year olds do.
Though the lack of sex started to kill the relationship about a year in. One thing to point out here, at the same time the sex started dropping off, I found out more and more about her past. She had a name tattood on her ass that got me started on the path. I found out it was from her very possessive ex who basically had an unnamed sub/dom dynamic with her. I took that in stride thinking people change. There were a few more things that popped up. In the process of fixing her computer she had to tell me her password, it was a reference to another ex. I got the story out of her on that too. They were a lot of everything we weren't on the sexual side.
Through the whole process of this we were trying to fix the sexual side of things, and get the spark going... Though I think I was so adamant about wanting it all the time it pushed her further away on the issue, her inability to cum from anything but oral left me with my own issues, I had confidence and therefore performance problems.
In the end I found out she was FAR more sexually experienced than I was, she had been with 30 men to my 4 women, and had many threesomes, both mfm and fmf. I had also found many dirty pictures abd videos she had sent and received on her old phone.
Our sex life devolved into little more than me going down on her and her giving me handjobs/titfucking.
Things eventually came to a head after 2 years and she broke up with me, though it was mutual to a point because of the bad sex.
She moved out as I owned the house. Though life at her adopted parents place was shit, and we were still close friends I let her move back in with the agreement that she would pay (a low) rent and half the bills. Under the agreement that she didn't bring guys to the house. We did have sex occasionally as roommates, maybe a time or two a month, only got acess to her pussy about half the time though.
I started dating around and did bring a couple of girls home though I made sure to not flaunt it in front of her. Once she came home while I was in the middle of fucking a girl. I decided it wasn't really fair to have a double standard like that. So I told her it was ok go bring her boyfriends home.
Within a few days she had a guy over, and I could hear them going at it, and hear her cumming like I could never get her to. I would listen in and masturbate every time, cumming as hard as I ever have. Within a months time she had another guy start coming over, and quite frequently.
We still hung out quite a bit, with the occasional fooling around. I eventually confessed to her that I loved hearing her get fucked and hearing her cum for her boyfriend. When her boyfriend would leave I would frequently go in right after him and eat her used pussy while she told me the details about what I got to listen to throuhh the walls. Once they had been together for a while they stopped using condoms and she told me I probably didn't want to go down on her anymore, but something about it turned me on even more, so we continued.
It was quite a fun few months hearing her get fucked, going in after he left, hearing all the details about how big he was, or how dominant he was in bed, and most of all going down on her used pussy.
She just moved on into an apartment with some new dude. I'll miss her and now don't know how to have a normal relationship again.
BX
