Hello,
Here's where I think my cuckold fetish comes from. I was on a small club swim team all through high school. Of course, wearing speedos/tight swimsuits came with the territory, particularly ones in bad shape that we would just wear to practice. During those years, I would pretty much be flat under my suit, no bulge at all.
There were only a few other guys my age on the team, but their bulges were pretty noticeable, and one guy had a penis that seemed like it was going to pop out whenever he wore a speedo. I was particularly self conscious about this during showers, where I looked pretty pathetic compared to them. We were all friends, but they would make light-hearted jokes about how small I was. Now I was self-conscious, but I hadn't had sex before, and I just figured that the whole "size doesn't matter, it's how you use it" was going to be true.
Enter Rachel, a girl my age who I had known since I was a kid. She was blonde, in such amazing shape (those legs), and had a super quirky, nerdy personality. I would make it my goal every time we were together to make her laugh because she had such a cute giggle.
I was basically head over heels for her for years, but she seemed to think of me only as a good friend, so I didn't ask her out. I was afraid she would reject me, and it would ruin our friendship. Of course, other guys weren't so beta and would date girls on the team all the time.
This is where things got more painful. People on the swim team would gossip a lot, about the relationships going on between members, drama, all that high school stuff. I was always in a lane next to an all girl lane, so I would hear everything they were talking about.
Every once and awhile, the conversation would stray to bulges of the guy swimmers. They would joke about some of the guys needing bigger suits and try to guess the sizes of the ones with bigger bulges. I guess they knew I was close by because they always forgot to mention anything about me while they casually discussed who was biggest on the team.
Rachel would always look embarrassed during this conversation, which made me think she was innocent and not buying into what other girls her age were thinking. I was very wrong. There was this kid named Alex on the team who was quite the asshole.
I was friends with him anyway, but he was kind of a jerk. He stood out from the rest of us because he had quite a bit of muscular bulk for a swimmer. He also happened to have the biggest dick of the bunch, what seemed like 6-7 inches flaccid from what I had seen taking showers, and I think just being so big all around made him super cocky.
One day in the locker room, he started sharing how he and Rachel had hooked up. Apparently they had just started making out after practice, but he quickly convinced her to suck his cock, and from his account, she was barely able to fit it in her mouth. She also swallowed his load because she was going home to her parents and didn’t want to be dirty. Even though I shouldn't have been hurt, I felt terrible hearing this. Apparently even Rachel had been eyeing Alex's bulge.
It's not just the one time blowjob that destroyed me here. Alex would constantly seem to get away with anything with the girl I wanted because of his big cock and arrogance. Being the jerk he was, he bragged about his sexual exploits to most of the team, and Rachel got pretty angry. The next day, Alex told us how she confronted him, and he managed to get her to suck his cock again by the end of the conversation.
Even though he would only brag about it occasionally, Alex did eventually share that Rachel sucked his cock almost daily after practice to help him unwind. Word apparently got around with the girls, and I think several other girls hooked up with Alex at one time or another.
There was this weird thing about losing their virginity among them (Catholic high school), so they mostly settled for blowing his big dick instead of getting fucked.
All the while, I was friends with Rachel. We would go on outings with the team together and shared a lot of interests, like bad movies and video games. I was always so happy when I was with her, but the idea of her sucking cock everyday wasn't leaving my mind.
One day I worked up the courage to finally ask her just to stop the pain. She just smiled at me and said, "Awww." She explained that she had always thought of me as a little brother, and she even patted me on the head reassuringly. I was the same age as Alex, but she basically treated me like a kid while she was still swallowing his load every day.
I remember Alex telling another story just about a week later about how he finally got Rachel to at least do anal with him, bragging about it to the whole locker room. That night, I was so completely devastated. I fapped at home, and for some reason all I could think about was her taking it up the ass from a more alpha guy than me. I came harder than I ever had before, even though I was disgusted with myself afterwards.
That's basically it. I know I was silly and attributed a lot of the things in the situation to cock size and me being a beta, but that's how I eventually began to fetishize being inadequate and having my wife taken (pics included).
She hasn't done anything yet but we've discussed the fantasy and her eyes lit up when we did. I think she's hooked and it could happen any day, we just need the right set up.
Logan
