I Was Inadequate

Hello,

I had a chance a few days ago to chat with my ex-wife, first time in years. I had been hoping for a long time that I would be able to talk with her about our marrage and our time together. We had aways remained friends and I knew if we had a chance to talk she would be able to enlighten me our my situation. I knew she was the only person that would tell me straight up about my performance and our sex life together. Even though I did not understand my situation at the time of our relationship she had cuckolded me the entire time beginning even while we were dating.

I explained to her that after our marriage ended I had problems dating other women and seemed to be lost in relationships. She was reluctant to talk about it at first but became more open as our conversation progressed. Anyway I asked her point blank to tell me about our sex life, I asked her to be honest and not hold anything back. I also told her about cuckolds and explained to her that I felt I was either a cuckold before we married our became one during our marrage. I think I always had this fetish but it became a lot stronger during our marrage.

First off I knew she had been with several of my friends while we were dating, we dated around alot in those days and there was alot of playing going on. She told me she always loved me and she enjoyed our time together. She went on to explain that I was a disapointment in bed, she did not mind letting me enjoy her body but only got off on my excitement.

She told me that the other guys she was with had more staying power and were better equiped to hit the areas that stimutated her. She said that I was lacking a little in length but was lacking alot in thickness. She said that the other guys were able to make her cum easy and some were able to screw again after they rested for a few minutes. This is something I was never able to do. She said that her sexual satisfaction during our dating peroid and marrage came from other guys.

One thing she told me that hit a little hard was that she told these guys that she loved me but needed on outlet for good sex. I knew all but one of the guys she screwed during this time so it was quite humbling to know that these guys also knew I was lacking. I told her that being a cuckold that I got turned on by this and I was at peace with with my standing in the male community. I believe a real turning point of me becoming a true cuckold was during the last 3 or 4 years we were married.

She was screwing a co-worker almost everyday. I knew by how she dressed for work and the after hours events she went to that something going on. Her co-worker was a lot older and a dominant guy, he had her doing as he wished when he wished. We talked a lot during this time because I knew something was up but she would never admit to it. So I watched her dress for work every morning leaving her bra and panties at home knowng she was going to be giving it up at some point in the day.

I got where I said nothing else about it, I even started buying her sexy clothes to wear when she would go out of town with him on business. He even picked her up from our house several times. She said during that point of time he had sex with her 15 times to my one. She also gave him BJ's at the office , driving down the road and anywhere else he wanted one. She also told me she swallowed for him everytime unless she was getting him hard to screw her. She even let him try anal but she did not like it at all.

He also took pictures of her to show his golfing buddies. He even took pictures of him penatrating her. She said that if I would have been good in bed she most likely would have never looked elsewhere. She has remarried and has a good life and I am happy for her. Her husband knows little of her past and she has been loyal to him. She has told him I was not able to ever make her orgasm and she said he liked to hear that. He is able to make her cum like all the other real guys shes been with.

There was one other thing my ex-wife told me that hit me like a brick. We had hung around with a group of 5 or 6 guys and 5 or 6 gals during our younger years. During that time I had spent some time with several of the girls, I had screwed 2 of them and it was common knowledge back then that we were all pretty open about sex. My ex-wife told me that the girls often talked among themselves about who had done who and which one was better. She said it was common knowledge within the girls in our group that I was not a good screw. She said back then she felt sorry for the way they talked but always defended me by saying what I lacked in cock I made up for by being a nice guy that treated her well. She also said she was getting it elsewhere. During our marrage she also had a close girlfriend she was telling everything to. This girl was over at our house all the time. I wish I had know then how much she knew about our relationship.

Anyway, that's how I became and remain a cuck and I also have some pictures of her.

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