Hello,
My wife told me she slept with someone. I didn't know it would happen.
I felt betrayed.
So what did we do? Fucked like rabbits while I probably annoyed her with questions. I also was furious, and told her that she lied to me, kept me in the dark, and that was unfair (despite it worked out so fucking well, god what a rush). I had asked her to do it numerous times and she always said 'no' and this has gone on for years! I had given up and felt content where we were and started to not want it anymore and was happy we let it go. Then, out of the blue she told me she fucked someone. My stomach dropped. Oddly enough, I told her she had to fuck him again and film it. It was almost like it wasn't me saying those words.
She said "ok". (!!!!!)
Week or two later she has made arrangements to meet him at a hotel. She showers, shaves, gets dressed. My heart is pounding. I am still undecided if I am going to let her walk out or not.
She comes down. She is gorgeous. She is drunk. She tells me I have to drive her. )#&$)&$)@&$)&( ????? Remember, truth and fiction ... I drive my wife to a hotel, drop her off out front looking like a hooker, I go across the street and watch him approach, greet her, and they walk around the side to go to the room.
I was about to have a heart attack I was so excited. I went home and sat there for 2 hours ... I COULD NOT WAIT FOR HER TO GET BACK.
Finally, car pulls up, she gets out, comes inside, stumbles down onto the couch. I ask her .. "WELL?!?!?!"
She says ... and pay attention ... "I dont know. It wasn't working for me. Here, watch it for yourself."
Like an idiot, rather than enjoying the moment and picking her brain I rush into watching the video on the camera I gave her. While getting situated, she grabs her stomach area and moans like she is in pain. I asked her whats wrong .. she says .. "omg honey, he was so big .. too big."
I almost came in my pants and passed out all at once.
Now, my first time watching this video was odd -- I was too excited to really enjoy the depth of it. Yes, the wife and I had sex several times that night. It was incredible. But the vid ....
The vid ... is incredible. Yes, he was huge. Still to this day I am unsure how this little hottie is taking it like that. He fucked her for about 20 mins. She made him stop bc he was too big. They did several positions, doggy style towards the end, and she is moaning like a ghost and asks him to stop. He leans over and turns off the camera!!! (#^$)(@*
Now, she does not think anything happened after, but the truth is she was so drunk she doesn't remember much of it at all (in many ways I thankful of this .. you would be too if you saw this tape).
Following this, I became a nightmare for her... I wanted to pick at her for info ALL the time, it was embarassing. I was telling her she had to do it again bc there was no cum shot, etc. My obsession with this was hurting our relationship.
She sat me down and told me she loved me. She told me it might happen again, maybe with him, maybe not. But right now she did not want to fuck him again, never really wanted to, and she did it for me. The vid is yours. Enjoy it.
So that's what I have done. I backed off. I watch the movie when going solo and this relieves her of the burden of talking to me during sex every time. She does enjoy it, just not EVERY time. Me on the other hand, I need someone to impose restraint. It really has worked out very well.
I don't think I would say I am a cuck, but perhaps I am wrong. I like when she tells me his cock is bigger than mine, etc, but I have no desire to be humiliated any further than that, and certainly against him even knowing that I know. However, it does turn me on like nothing else ever has when she is telling me about her stories, or I m watching the tape, or she is fantasizing for me.
I love it. I love my wife. She is amazing. I am happy.
Just thought I would share my story and what role this interesting approach (cuckolding) has in my life.
ps I left out a lot of details bc I am nervous about putting them out there. Egocentric, perhaps, but I am just getting comfortable, so bear with me. I also wish I could show everyone the video but that wouldn't fly with her as it shows her face much of the time.
To the site admin and others, thank you for your support of the readers and posters of this blog. It's people like you who make it feel like a place you can come and share and read, and not feel embarassed or silly or ashamed.
Thank you.
This is quite the first post Thanks for reading.
HJL
