Hello,
So a little background. I (m/23) have been dating my girlfriend Shelby (f/21) for about a year. We met the night after she broke up with her last boyfriend and started dating the next day.
She is a gorgeous little thing. Precocious, headstrong, and she has a fierce streak of pride. Our relationship has been great, but we've had some problems because when it comes to the bedroom.... Shelby tends to be insatiable. I've always thought I was decent between the sheets and even though I may be a little "below average" because I try to make it up in other ways, but I know she has had better experiences.
She has told me about guys making her cum just by fingering her (I never managed this), and just by eating her out (did this once only). She even let slip once that one guy she hooked up with gave her multiple orgasms in rough, purely lust driven sex... while I'm over here proud of lasting long enough to make her cum once.
I know I've had fewer partners than her, at 3 including her... while she confesses to 5 including me. I guess she and her boyfriends went on lots of "breaks" where she did what people do on relationship breaks. Or at least she says they were breaks, she claims she has never cheated.
But I recently discovered that was not true. Although she thinks I'm oblivous, I know she has at least had one guy over behind my back recently... Some guy from her school who she has been befriending. She hides texting him and avoids talking about him, though she did admit he asked to take her out.
Yet even when I knew he was with the people she goes out with she wouldn't say a word about him... unfortunately her cheating game is weak, and failing to dispose of condom wrappers properly is an amateur move. But I left it where it was and it was gone later so she probably doesn't know that I know her secret... and ever since my head has been spinning. I still haven't said anything to her, but we had some great sex that night.
Part of me wonders if it turns her on, or if that's just me projecting.
Now onto why I'm emailing this in so late at night... Shelby loves to go out clubbing to dance and stuff. I rarely join her because it's not really my thing. Besides that, when she comes over tipsy at 2 in the morning after going out she is an absolute animal.
She does things she would never do sober, it's basically like a park all the rides are open and has lead to some of the best sex of my life... but it's a double edged sword.
It would all be good but Shelby has a problem with getting blacked out, and it just so happens she is terrible at making girlfriends, so she generally blacks out with guys who want her drunk which is... concerning.
So tonight, she went out for a ("one") drink with a classmate (a different one)... and best I can guess they probably said screw it and went downtown to the Saturday clubs. I happen to know she likes to dance with this gentleman, although she swears the dancing is strictly platonic. We've also talked in the past about his intentions which she aknowledged.
Last time they went out to a party she confessed he kept trying to grind on him (a story my inside man corroborated). She again insists she kept it clean... but they went out almost six hours ago and she hasn't texted me since 10 and she isn't answering her phone, and while maybe she just went home and passed out... I'm not naive.
I have seen the way my girl moves, her body screams "tight". She tells me she always gets flirted with when she goes out, but I know Shelby working it in those short shorts she wore tonight would have any guy adjusting his jeans. Add to this that we haven't had sex in at least a week, and if Shelby got blacked out... I doubt she would resist his advances.
BTW, blacked out is code for her pretending to not know what happened for an hour or two. I've never seen her do that in all the time I've been with her, even drunk so I know it's made up by her for times when she wants to cheat.
Anyway, I know she and her classmate ubered from her apartment, which means they would have to go back there in any case, and I know from experience how short the walk to her bedroom can be... so while I may not have proof tonight, perhaps tomorrow I will have an interesting conversation. Still don't know whether to bring up her night with classmate.
Sorry for the rant, hope it isn't too incoherent... I'll send along pics of her so you can see her, but this I'm sitting here in my apartment just waiting, unable to sleep, fantasizing about what my girlfriend is doing out with another guy.
I figure this is as good a place as any for my story.
F & S
