Hello,
So I went over to my GFs house last night. She was getting ready for the mixer, and was looking so hot. After a little while, I worked up the courage and brought up the night we overheard her housemate getting fucked. I could tell she felt a little awkward talking about it, but I told her that I haven’t been able to stop thinking about that night. She stopped getting dressed and sat on the bed and said really why? And I said that I could tell how jealous she was that night and how it was obvious she wished it was her getting fucked like that. She tried to say no that's not true, but I asked her to let me finish before she said anything.
I explained to her that that night made me realize that I would never be able to give her the sexual satisfaction she deserves and that I wanted her to be able to have the sexual experiences that she desires. (One desire I know she has is to be dominated and degraded. In the past, she's asked me to dominate her and degrade her during sex. I've tried multiple times, but I know that it didn't meet her expectations because a couple of times in the middle of me trying to dominate her she told me to stop and just have regular sex and would use her vibrator after we were finished.)
I explained to her that it's really important to me that she is satisfied in every way and that while I believe she's generally happy with me, I know she's not happy with our sex life. She tried to interject again and said please just let me finish. Then, I finally told her that it really turns me on to imagine her with another guy and seeing her be pleasured by another guy better than I ever could. She then blurted out are you trying to say you want an open relationship? Absolutely not, I don't want you with other women. I told her that's exactly the opposite of what I want. I don't want to be with any other girl, but I want her to be free to explore. I said think about it as a half open relationship.
She was clearly intrigued at this point and asked me what I get out of it. I told her that I think it would be really great for our relationship because while we have an amazing relationship I know that she's sexually frustrated and that's the source of a bit of tension between us. I also explained that the submissive and humiliation aspect really turns me on. She asked me what I meant by that and I was pretty embarrassed at this point but explained as best as I could that it really turns me to imagine being submissive and obedient to her as I support her in being with other guys.
I told her how the humiliation and jealousy of her being with a better guy turns me on more than anything. She said so you get off on feeling inferior? And I said yes. She asked me to further explain how I wanted to be humiliated and I told her about my fetish and how I would love for her to tease me about being inadequate. She asked more questions for about 10 more minutes and I answered them, but she didn't really say much. She then got off the bed and continued to get dressed.
My heart was racing and I had no idea what she was thinking or feeling about what I just confessed to her. After what felt like forever, I asked her what she thought. She said you're sure you really want this? I said yes I'm sure, that I've thought about it a lot and have wanted it for a long time. I just need her to be completely open and honest about everything if we do it because that's the only way that it works.
She said that she thinks it could be really fun for her, and that she agrees it could be really good for our relationship. She said that everything I said was pretty accurate about her feelings towards our sex life. She confessed that she has been pretty jealous of her friends and their sex lives and experiences. I've never seen her so open with me. It was amazing and I was so turned on. So I asked her if she wanted to do it and she said yes she wanted to give it a try. She came over to the bed and kisses me and told me how much she loved me and how thankful she is that I told her about my desires.
I'm so fucking excited. It couldn't have gone any better. I never imagined that she would be so open to it. She didn't do anything at the mixer but we've been texting all morning about it. I'm so excited for the next steps and making this a reality. I've been really open with her in our texts and trying to show her how submissive I am and how excited I am about this. I've been trying to ask her questions to show how much I enjoy being humiliated and how I want to support her and help her find superior men to sleep with.
Can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Underdog
