Hello,
First of all: I know cheating and cucking are two different things, but I still want to write this out.
Basically, my gf has this friend that is from the other side of the country. He is visiting a state north of us (about a 4 hr drive) and after talking to my gf on insta, he is booking a hotel to come to our city one night on the promise that she’ll show him around. My gf obviously told me and asked me if it was okay, I got kinda peeved and said no initially and she said okay.
Turns out the guy still booked the hotel and she told me she'd make up an excuse and have him hang out by himself. Obviously this made me feel bad so I said, "fine, hang out with him" ... she even told me I should come with, I didn't want to.
Usually, if it were any other guy I'd probably be fine with it but this is a guy she's told me that they used to fuck back in college. Then he was basically a scumbag and fucked other girls while they had "a thing" and kind of embarrassed her. Apparently they became friends and stayed in touch.
She tells me she sees him nothing more than a friend and that I'm overthinking it. I think it's obvious this guy is coming to try and fuck her, maybe it's just my jealous self but I can't see another reason to drive hours down and book a hotel just to see a girl you used to fuck.... maybe I'm just an asshole.
My gf isn't shy to the idea of cucking. In fact, we use it a lot in our sex life. she's not shy to tell me I'm smaller than her ex's and we've even used her ex as a sex device while she cums (she thinks of him and says his name as she cums when I fuck her). I know she loves me unconditionally and I give off this persona that I'm super secure with myself when in reality that shit just turns me on. I'm wondering if this fantasy we've built together might carry over into that night and after a few drinks she'll either text me asking for permission to fuck this guy or do it without my knowledge.
I'm kinda nervous and don't want to let her go but I feel like I'm a pussy if I don't.
So... I couldn't help it... I asked when he was coming into town last night and she told me this week. I asked if she was going to hang out with him and she said "maybe, probably." I then asked a few details like what're they going to do etc... she basically was saying "there's nothing to worry about, we'll probably just get food, no way he's just here to see me, he's just passing by". I told her there's no way you think that right? Of course, she confirmed her thoughts that he wasn't there just for her.
I then got horny and 5 minutes later initiated sex. While we were fucking she asked me, "does it turn you on that he's coming?" ... I responded "no". But I was harder than ever and she realized it. She asked me again and I admitted that it was kind of hot. Then we got into it.
I asked her if she finds him attractive at all, to which she responded "no" in between moans. I figured she was still lying, so I presses it. I asked her in between thrusts if she would fuck him if we weren't together. she straight up said "yeah I would". I asked her what she was thinking (I'm still fucking her at this point) and she told me she imagined herself fucking me in front of him. This doesn't turn me on too much so I told her, what if I don't go? she responded: "you want me to fuck him while you're not there??" and I said "would that make you feel more comfortable?" to which she immediately in between moans said "yeah I would, if I knew you were okay with it."
I the told her a scenario of what if she has no intention of hooking up with him, but he asked her to check out his hotel, which any friend would do, what if once she got up there he started kissing her and pushed her against the walll, started touching her clit and moved her to the bed and fucked her? she basically started cumming at that moment and I asked her "what's his name?" and as she was cumming she said his name, and I came inside her. we laid there, with me still shrinking inside her and she told me to "never let her go".
After we fucked I felt pretty weird. I kind of regretted bringing it up and asked her "you know this is just fantasy right?" she literally looked at me and in a strange tone and a smile, the tone where you can tell they don't mean it, simply said "yeah, sure!" ... I was so post coitus and a little humiliated so I didn't press it.
We've NEVER done any real cucking before and I honestly don't think she's going to fuck this guy. I see a 15% chance she does... but I can't tell at this point if i'm tricking myself to believe in one way or another. there are a few things that are 100% true.
1) this guy is here to see her, probably wants to hook up with her but knows she is in a relationship
2) she knows I get off on the idea of her fucking him
3) she'd fuck him if she was single
So... I'll let you guys know if something happens and post again on the blog but i'll be honest when I say don't get your hopes up.
Dweebs
